Dear fluffy Bhai.
Please read below in blue.
I would like to understand your anger or upset with Veerendra Dev Dixit and the AIVV.
Once you understand what part Veerendra Dev Dixit is playing then there is no real anger on Veerendra Dev Dixit or AIVV...there is just a little bit of frustration that i could not recognise the part that Veerendra Dev Dixit is playing and that whole Advanced Knowledge is a clever mayavi deception to take the PBKs for a ride in the name of truth( as per drama)....i have only to blame myself for having taken Baba Dixit and his Advanced Knowledge for granted.
Presumably you were an ex-BK before you became a PBK and then an ex-PBK.
Yes---you are right.....all PBKs are invariably ex-bks (with very few exceptions).
Did you express your anger and upset at the BKs before you joined the PBKs and then did so towards them?
Yes---i did express my anger and the same frustration that i am expressing now towards the PBKs....but now i also understand that each group is playing its part perfectly as per drama and that no one is to be blamed....and those who progress in Godly knowledge have this duty of speading the awareness of the incomplete nature of basic knowlege and ambigious nature of Advanced Knowledge, as they ascend the spiritual pyramid.
Why do you feel particularly upset or let down by Veerendra Dev Dixit and the AIVV?
To tell you frankly--yes... it was particularly upsetting in the initial years, when i felt let down by the person(Baba Dixit) whom i respected so much and thought that he was living GOD...but now i feel that Baba Dixit is not to be blamed at all, because the drama demands that he has to be playing the personified role of maya-ravan to mislead the PBKs.......it is the fault of PBKs who are not aware of Veerendra Dev Dixit's mayavi part and accept him blindly(without churning the Murlis/Vanis), as personified God.
As per Murlis "Maya has been given the part to make a fool of PBKs" and if the PBKs do not recognise Godly Maya,(inspite of repeated warnings in Vanis) then they have only to blame themsleves for it...mayavi partdhari cannot be blamed.
Are you motivated by a sense of loyalty to the Brahma Kumaris?
On my spiritual journey i have learnt a lot from BKWSU and AIVV...but my loyalty is neither towards BKWSU or towards AIVV...my loyalty is only towards my understanding of truth (how i interpret the Murlis/Vanis)....if i am right, then i will pass the exam and if i am wrong then i will fail...that is my belief in a nutshell.
Have you returned to being a Hindu or have you given up being religious?
I am still religious and still go to temples(not as a religious duty and only for sight-seeing) and try to follow the Hindu code of conduct.
Are you happy being non-religious/an atheist, or do you feel lost and alone?
I am not an atheist and i fully believe that in the combined motherhood -fatherhood of God ie. no. 1 shivshakti mamma-jagdamba.(unlike the bks-and PBKs)....i used to feel lost and alone during the period 1997-8 and 2007-8 till i read the bhakti-phrase "Shiva is shakti and shakti is Shiva" and the whole understanding of Gyan started becoming clear.
Would you return to the BKWSU and accept it again?
Once you start climbing the spiritual pyramid, then there is no looking back or downwards... either you stay where you are or you strive to climb further up.
Do you feel you are doing any good by attacking the Veerendra Dev Dixit and the PBKs?
I am not attacking Baba Dixit or PBKs...i am just opposing their teachings/beliefs and feel that it is my duty to share my views and experiences with my fellow BKs and PBKs. (lest they may catch my ears in the end and complain that you did not tell us about no. 1 shivshakti.)(as per Vanis)
Do you feel financially exploited by the AIVV?
No.....whatever seva i did was out of my sincere belief that i am spreading the message of GOD.
How is your life going now? Are you content, is your personal and professional life going well?
Life is pretty fine now and i am quite content now with my professional and personal life, but sometimes when i look back i do get feel some regret that i should have maintained balance between my lokik life and alokik life.....i have paid a heavy price on both professional and personal fronts for not having manitained a balance...but that again is part of drama and i cannot do anything about it now...it will repeat every Kalpa (just as i am writing this reply to you.)
Do you feel like you have recovered from your BK/PBK experiences or do they still trouble you?
I have recovered quite well and the spiritual journey was worth it....it has made me a lot wiser today...both in lokik and alokik life.
Do you hold any individuals HERE personally responsible for what you experienced?
All Individual souls are all playing their part perfectly and nobody is responsible for other's fortune or mis-fortune....each soul is responsible for his own actions and is the master of his own fate.
Dear fluffy Bhai.
I had replied to your earlier queries in another thread and i am reproducing them here in case you have not read them.
Shivsena, if you really does not believe in The Knowledge as it is taught by both the BKWSU and AIVV ... ? why do you remain so hooked on it?
I believe in The Knowledge of both orgs, but i do not believe that they have interpreted the Murlis and Vanis correctly.....both are rightly playing their part as per this behad ka drama....i am certainly not hooked to it, but i have to duty towards the BKs and PBKs to make them aware of the fact that neither basic or Advanced Knowledge is the last stop in spiritual knowledge and there is more to Godly knowledge than meets the eye.
Why do you not just not let go and move on in life.
Since this is my life, where do i go from here. ("jeena yahan, marna yahan, isske sivaa jaana kahan")(meaning: Live here, Die here, where else to go.)
Is there any chance that it is just a irresolvable mental obsession going round and round in your mind rather than anything of any importance?
If you cannot see anything of importance in my posts then you are free to ignore them.
We all know that The Knowledge, as taught by the BKWSU, is not true and has be re-written and re-edited by silly and dishonest humans. I also agree with you that "Advanced Knowledge" also has failures and is at time illogical and inconsistent.
If you agree with the above fact that both knowledge are not the truth, then is it not your duty to make your fellow Brothers aware of the same!!
As much as I appreciate his efforts and accept he has made a serious influence upon the BKWSU and suffered at their hands, some of Veerendra Dev Dixit's responses are really disappointing and do not address the questions being asked.
VD's efforts are certainly laudable as far as igniting the churning process of knowledge is concerned....but i will not agree that he has suffered at the hands of BKs so much as he has inflicted pain and mental agony to BKs in return...also in this respect i have seen PBKs suffering more than BKs due to Ak. Have you ever taken Advance Course and have you been in close contact with the PBK family to realise what repercussions Ak has had on their lives and how badly it has affected their personal lives and profession.....Unless you take the Advance Course personally and talk to senior PBKs and ex-pbks only then you will understand why i have taken a stand to oppose the Advanced Knowledge.
Is there never a time when you think about just walking away from it all and becoming an ex-BK/PBK?
I am an ex-BK/PBK, but i see no reason why i should be just walking away from all this Godly knowledge, when i devoted my whole life to the pursuit of truth.
Would you just walk away from something, which you have devoted all your life for ??? (just because few souls insist on the same)
I, personally, think it might be good for you to step back and allow the BKs/PBKs to manage this forum ... as long as they allow you to continue posting as you wish. The forum needs updating and developing and you cannot do that alone. It requires a team working together do so.
I feel that forum is working fine and each party has been given their own sub-forum also to present their ideas and each member is totally free to discuss anything anywhere (provided it is done in a relevant healthy manner)
BKs have their own forum and PBKs have their own websites to propagate Ak.....so I personally see no reason for stepping back to let bks-pbks manage this forum.
Religion is a matter of faith. Most people are happy with illogical paradoxical beliefs. That is just the way it is. But it helps to allow people to fully express and explore what they believe in order to progress.
I fully agree with your views about religion and faith...but what we are discussing on the forum is about " what is truth" and " what is untruth"....if BKs and PBKs openly say that they are preaching religion(philosophy) and not the truth, then i will stop opposing them.....i do not go to other religious forums to oppose them.....i am here solely because both BKs and PBKs claim that they are preaching the truth but imo, they are just preaching a philosophy.....BKs are preaching omnipresence of GOD by teaching that Shiva is a point of light nirakaar(which is already known to the world) and PBKs are preaching the philosophy of " atma so paramatma" by teaching that one deh-dhari becomes God.