Intriguingly, he maintains the time is cyclical, but confesses to being "enchanted" by Darwinism ... of his BK experience, he says:
And finally he describes how the BKs destroyed his faith in science:Paul Brocklehurst wrote:It took a few months for the Honeymoon Period to wear off. Then.... my family fell apart; and almost all my friends disappeared. As if that wasn't enough, I also felt like I too was starting to disappear or fall apart. The idea of cyclical time had dislodged some of the foundations of my identity. All the things that I had believed in and based my world upon had been cast into doubt. I remember asking myself over and over again, "Is there anything left that I can be certain about?" And the only answer that I could find was "uncertainty". The world seemed to be full of paradoxes and it felt as though all that was left was a drifting empty shell. I'd lost the feeling that I had any control. I felt like all I could do was watch and see what happened next.
I just knew that science was correct and religion was wrong! All the evidence proved it to be so ... But what I did not realise until much later was that all beliefs, including a belief in natural selection, are taken entirely on a basis of faith. I had been so much indoctrinated to think that science was different and that scientific experiments and methods could be used to "prove" things to be true. It wasn't till I was with the Brahma Kumaris that the coin finally dropped.
It happened one day when I was in India ... A girl was saying to the founder of the BKs (a man whom people used to call "Baba") that she was having difficulty having faith in the cycle of time. She wanted to believe, and was looking for some sort of explanation or proof of it that would be so convincing that she would lose all her doubts. But instead of giving an explanation, Baba responded, "Just have blind faith!"
I am not sure how the girl responded to that, I think she was a bit disappointed. But as I heard him say it, it suddenly occurred to me that, really, all faith is blind! There is only blind faith! Everything we believe in, we take on trust. We may think things can be proved or have been proved, but it's just not true ... Nowadays my attitude is that if a belief works, it might as well be true ... The same could be said of falling in love. It's a sort of madness or psychosis really, but it's a useful one. Without it, people would find it almost impossible to open up to each other enough to discover what really lies inside. Faith, likewise, enables us to take steps into the dark that we would not otherwise take.